Change

I was just standing at my kitchen sink doing dishes. In the reflection of the window I saw a window I didn't know was anywhere in this home we are renting. I looked behind me....in front of me....behind me...over and over again before I realized I was looking at my next door neighbors window. Ahhhhh. Seriously not used to having neighbors so close. Not used to having hundreds of people drive by everyday...that many because we live right by the elementary school. Not used to so very many things.
But when Jared forgot his lunch today it sure was nice to call the school and have him just run home and grab it. There is always something positive....right :)

The first week in this home...which we have named the Brady Bunch home was horrible. No heat at all in any of the bedrooms or bathrooms. Even Matt couldn't sleep because he was so cold...and he sleeps great at klondikes. The second week was better because we had heat finally although I'm never really warm without the fire. But emotionally it was really hard on me. Reality hit that week. I missed my home and really missed it's location.

This has not been easy.

But it is getting better :)! I am knitting again...my therapy. I am learning how to function in a kitchen that has half the counter space I'm used to. I'm learning where things are. And most importantly I'm enjoying my time with my boys. We took everything important with us when we moved...each other as cheesy as that sounds it's true. Today I went up to my "old" home and Samantha taught me to section grape fruit. Amazing & yummy & so very nice of her. I parked in my old driveway. Stood in my old kitchen. Washed my hands. And felt like I was bottling again. Only it didn't feel like my home anymore. It didn't smell like my home...not that it smelled...everyone has a different smell in the home and this one wasn't mine. The home want mine at all anymore. Sure I could look around it and see all the amazing memories we made there. So many fun times and hard times to that helped us grow and learn. But now we get to start a new adventure. And we are all still together to do it.

Life is so good!